... [He looks surprised, turning to stare at his hands in confusion, as if they acted of their own volition, then...] I— it just, for a moment there, felt like you might go somewhere far away... if I didn't. That must've been why. [So he says, but he sounds as if he's trying to convince himself of an idea he's not entirely sold on yet.]

Maybe I wouldn't have the strength. Or maybe, even if I did, it wouldn't be enough. If I'm going to do something, I want to give it everything I've got. That's basic, isn't it?

I don't like doing things halfway...

Maybe I'd be too stubborn to leave until I've perfected it.

It might be too late then.

[He's giving this an awful lot of thought.]